That is lyrics of a song playing while I thought about titles. Times aren’t hard at all. I’m just having to make decisions for my life.

Last semester, I had to deal with work, school, family, and personal stuff. The stress from it almost drove me crazy.

It was holiday season and I was working almost everyday for over 8 hours. I had to, we had gotten new people, who were airheads, and I felt like the place was going to fall into pieces if I wasn’t there.

I was into my second semester of my first year, and I was freaking out that I was not going to make it. I was scared that I was going to fall back into the person I used to be. The girl who was too scared to show up for class, so I just didn’t go. The expectations were too great, and I too minsulate to be there of any importance.

Since it was the holidays, family were always in talks of what was going on. This year, thankfully, my younger sister took the liberty of handling Secret Santa. But my other sisters would not concentrate on when we would meet, as if to avoid the subject. They wanted us to wait for them, but they didn’t want to be there…

I was having issues with my period… I was stressing so much, I missed a month. Then I tried to calm down enough to actually get it, and then I did. But I missed the month after… I struggled with it since I wanted to be healthy and happy. But how could I be healthy and happy when I was stressing out and not getting my period…

This semester is for difference. I plan on making big changes, to see how things go.

I decided that I was ready for the whole five classes. But to take those five classes, I knew I would have to change something about work. I decided that I was going to not work any day I had classes. I gave myself four days off from work, only to work Fri, Sat, and Sun.

It is something I need. I could not deal with going to school in the morning to receive assignments and know that I could not do them till I was done with work, only to have to be at school early again the next day. I don’t know why I did that to myself in the past.

I figured I could do with one less stressful thing.

I had worked there for five years. In those five years, I struggled through school for two years. One of those years were not successful and I worked through the last year and it was hard. The other three years, I struggled with personal family issues.

This year I want to do something different. The one thing [work] I put so highly, I will put down for a while and give myself time to work on other things.

There will be time in the future to work as hard as I do.